Debbie, I just read your story tonite and I am so sorry that all this has happened to you. No one can ever get away with saying that life is fair. I'm older 67 and lost my mom 13 years ago and I still find myself going for the phone to call her with good news, juicy gossip, bad news, or just to talk. I find that this especially hits me when I'm not feeling well. I so understand what you mean. There is just no way to make any sense out of your sister's death. I think that these are some of the things we'll find out when we're finally out of here. A few years ago I lost every friend I ever had. I became very ill and they all just ran away. Did they think I was going to ask them for something? And always in all those friendships I was always the first to jump for anyone who needed help with anything. I'd never again put such importance on friends. If you ever find yourself wanting to talk to someone day or nite, just write me and I'll answer and who knows maybe we'll settle some problems of the world. Never know. Lorraine