My soul’s misdirection (poem) Misdirection, my mind's disection, my soul's reflection, just one lecture, lost to the future the past a dirty suture, scared and numb, feeling dumb, loooking for love where there is none, feelings gone, same old song, runs through my head, "I'm better off dead", the words you say, don't make sense anyway, shards off glass, your shattered past, can'tget away, can't let you stay, want your heart, mine's ripped apart, adrift upon an open sea, no one can feel as empty as me, stare in your eyes, hope in your lies, cross my fingers, from the hidden dangers, my heart may break, too much to take, feels good to believe you're right, never want to start a fight, misdirection, misdirection, you have led me astray of my own soul's reflection. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You were like the phoenix (poem) I watch you rise like the phoenix, out of the ashes of my sorrow. Dusting off your dirty wings you fly away, leaving me to weep in my demise. A single feather falls gently to my feet..my regret. I watch as you disapear into the night leaving me, once your fire, now cold and forgotten ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Getting ready for war (poem) To fight with you is to put on armor and platemail run charging into battle with eyes closed armor gleaming dully in the shadow of my muddled thoughts that I try to sift through as you turn things around on me and I am forced to defend my honor. Your eyes spit hatred like dragon fire to sear the air I struggle to breathe, my love is burning ashes in the wind...... Confused,when you surrender too soon I know I may have won the battle but it's far from over yet You only give me time to gather my forces and prepare to strike again. This battlefield in my mind is littered with dreaded thoughts and damnnations held hostage... so long in a prison of silence. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Begin ( poem) I sit here alone always alone watching, waiting, to die, to begin, to live. I cry here in the shadows a painful weakness I shove hatefully away, watching, waiting, for love to die, to live, to begin. I the only one here listening to the empty words that spill from your lips watching, forever waiting, for you to die, for me to live, for new love to begin. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Mind games.....(poem) Call me your little pet names fuck with my head and play your mind games take away all hope because you've caged me I am damaged because you've changed me. Hate me because I want your love i knew I was right, there is no God above you want to hurt me, and you don't care how it has gone on too long, but I can't leave now. I can't seem to leave you, no matter how I try you hate to see my weakness but you love to see me cry. You love to beat me down, until there is nothing left but sorrow Everyday i wake up, hoping you'll die tomorrow. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Empty vessel...(poem) I smell your need these empty promises you think you can keep and your seed is spilled upon my heart while i pretend what you say is true while it surges through me, hungrily devouring doubt, leaving superficial trust. I hear your hollow words as your breathing deepens and sings in my ear I cannot feel the body you so (lovingly?) hold using it for your pleasure. I can read your dirty thoughts, as you empty yourself into me. |