Kate F. (kateford) reviewed Haunting on 6/2/2009 + 13 more book reviews

Helpful Score: 3

This book is the definition of "lonely in a crowd." Stephen Zanichkowsky is child number 8 in a family which grew to include 14 children. When you are born in the midst of chaos, you not only are denied the opportunity to have a "normal" childhood, you don't even know what normal *is*. All you know is that you have to fight, literally, for everything.

You fight for love and affection, which is in very short supply.
You fight to protect what pitifully few possessions you have.
You fight for a sense of self -- to show you have a personality and not a number.
You fight to get out.
You fight to stay out.
You fight to be visible -- please notice me as a unique person.
You fight to be invisible -- please don't beat me because I happened to be standing next to the kid who misbehaved.

You fight, fight, fight ... inside your own head, with your father, with your siblings, with your shame, with your anxiety, with your fear, with your impulses.

You are surrounded by 14 children, with every older child having lost some of himself or herself in the forced "nanny duties" they had in taking care of the younger children, setting up the inevitable certainty that the only things you want in this world are 1) things you don't have to share with other children; 2) invisibility so that you are not punished for the slightest infraction or due to misbehavior of other children; 3) freedom and 4) peace and quiet in a place of one's own.

Growing up lonely in a crowd, and being groomed to want nothing more than a piece of ground, someplace of your own, was never more clear than in this novel, which was heartbreaking and sad, but totally worth the read.

Good luck, Mr. Zanichkowsky. May you never again have to find a hiding place for your things, and may you always have your fill of candy.

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